As the news about Karina's antibody levels being high came in, I remembered again this is all about God's love for Karina and so many others.
Since September, 2009, when we learned about Karina's kidneys failing, I have been tutored by the Spirit about LOve. When wondering if Frank and I could survive having Karina not be with us on the earth anymore - made me look at our many friends and family who have indeed survived after losing a child to death. It was in the painful dread of her possible death that made me realize I might love my children and husband more than I love God. I think I now know I have had the 2 Great Commandments in the wrong order. How can I possibly learn to love God more than them? A wise friend we had to dinner last week shared this with me; "Remembering that any love we have in this life is a gift from God helps us." Then, it must be keeping in mind the "source" of love that puts our priorities in the right place. Without God, there is not love. Without God, there is no Karina, Nicolle, Camille, Ty or Trevor. Without God, I would not have the love of my life sharing each day and night with me. God is Love. Love is from God.
Does knowing this make anything easier? I believe it should and I am holding on to that.
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